Sadie thoughts

 On Saturday, Nathan and I did another one of our unprofessional photoshoots because we are too cheap to pay real photographers to take pictures for us. I like the way they turned out though. We wanted some really bright, simple pictures of Sadie while she's still in her newborn phase. She wasn't very cooperative, but I think we got some good ones. I just want to kiss her face all day.

Life is slowly starting to feel more normal. Although I still feel like I am a zombie sometimes. Babies really do change everything, but I wouldn't have it any other way! Really, the hardest part has been the c-section recovery, but that's getting a lot better. I can't wait to feel 100%, then I feel like I will be able to give her 100%.

 I really can't complain about lack of sleep too much, because she is pretty dang good. Textbook newborn- she wakes me up every 2-3 hours. But she doesn't fuss in-between and goes right back down after she eats. I still get around 7ish hours a night. It's all interrupted, obviously, but it's better than what I was expecting.

I love breastfeeding her, but holy dang is it still painful! It's nothing to do with her latch or position, I think I am just sensitive. Hopefully that feels better soon, because homegirl LOVES to eat. She gulps so fast, she starts choking. She gets it from her mama. When something tastes good, it's important to eat it as fast as you humanely can.

I'll admit I am turning into quite the mushy mom, not that I ever thought I wouldn't. I have just waited for her for so long, sometimes it doesn't seem real that she's here. After I feed her I always cuddle her for a minute while she falls asleep and I stare at her and sometimes I cry. Happy tears! She's just so beautiful and she's all mine. I have been ready to be a mom for so long, and now I get this perfect angel every day. Even when it's hard and I'm sleepy and in a lot of pain, all I have to do is just look at her. And it's still hard, but a good hard. A worth it hard.

 That's my sentimental mushy-ness. Nathan gets all mushy sometimes too, haha. He loves playing with her, even though she can't really respond at this point. He gets so excited to come home and see her every day. She's usually asleep and he'll ask for permission to wake her up. It's pretty precious.

 We had a fun weekend just the 3 of us. I have been told by my doctor to do as little as possible in order to heal, so we did just that. Almost nothing. We stayed in bed and ate and watched Netflix and napped and played with out little girl. It was so fun to just be in our own little world, soaking up Sadie's awesomeness. And there sure is a lot of it. 

We just love her a lot.