When Nathan and I met, we were both getting over very destructive high-school-relationships. Our friendship turned to love over and time and we both felt ready to date again. I worried though, about this girl from his past. Worried that she would come back and he would leave me. I was 19 and naive and self-conscious. One night I expressed my concern and Nathan laughed at the idea. The very next day, the first email came. An email expressing love and regret and offering an airplane ticket to leave me and join her. It was my worst nightmare coming true. I'd finally learned to trust again and now he was going to leave me.
But Nathan laughed as he read the email. Laughed when I told him I thought he was going to leave me. Laughed when she sent two more emails and had no problem replying to her attempts with a very honest and perfectly worded email that let her know there was no chance for them ever again because he'd found what he wanted, and it wasn't her.
I'll never forget the way he so selflessly put all my fears at rest immediately. He didn't let me worry, he didn't waver. He chose me. He chose me immediately. After the kind of relationship I had been in, it was overwhelming to feel so much love and kindness. Even though we'd only been dating a month, I knew at that moment that Nathan was someone I could marry.
Four years later I laugh at how insecure I was then. I laugh thinking anyone could ever keep Nathan and I from being together. But I am still taken aback at how prefect his love is some days. I feel so humbled that he chose me. Without a second thought, he chose me. I will always be grateful for that.
Thank you Nathan, for choosing me then and for choosing me now.
And just so you know, I choose you back.
I basically love everything about this post. :)
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ReplyDeleteAWWWWWW I teared up a little. Literally.
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