sentimental ramblings

I'm all weird and sentimental today. I probably shouldn't blog in such a state, but here I am anyways.

It was all started when one of my very best friends, B.Stew, blogged about her graduation this coming week and her little journey here in Utah. And then I thought about all the moments we got to share in Utah and how she will be leaving soon. Then I thought about my own Utah journey and my own graduation last April and it's making me feel all warm and fuzzy and weepy. Weird right?

Basically these kind of thoughts have been on my mind for a while now. I can't believe how much time has passed since I was a young 18 year old moving out to an unknown state to go to school. You know how you look back on memories when you were a little kid and it's hard to believe it was you? It seems like someone else's memories or that they happened to someone else? Well that's what's happening with the memories from my first few years in Utah. I have an entirely new life now. I am not a student. I am not single. I have said goodbye to many friends. I have lived in 11 different apartments. I have dated some weirdys and found my husband. I waited for a missionary. I moved from Salt Lake to Provo to Salt Lake to Holladay to Salt Lake once more. I started teaching middle school. My plans have been flipped up-side-down and twisted every which way. I am not the same girl who came out to Utah in 2006. I am not even the same girl who said goodbye to Nathan for 2 years in 2010 nor the one who saw him again for the first time at a park in Logandale 4 days before Christmas.

Maybe it's just me adjusting to this new life with a career and a husband and being able to fully close that door on my past life which has been so wonderful. But I am so glad to be here. All my dreams have come true. Sometimes it's hard to believe I am actually here. Everything I worked for my entire life is right in front of me. It feels even more amazing than I thought it would. Now if we could only get out of Utah!!! Just kidding. Kinda.

Sunday night, Nathan and I were driving home from my grandparents and a song came on that I had sent to Nathan on his mission. He said he felt like he was back out there and I realized it has only been barely 4 months since he came home. FOUR MONTHS! I feel like it's been years. In fact I feel like he never left. So much has happened, the time has flown. Makes me wonder just how fast these coming years will go.

This post isn't really making any sense. I am just typing anything that comes to my mind. Basically life is so incredible right now, I can't really believe it. Today I am happy and peaceful and sentimental. I love my life, and I love the years that brought me to this point.