This is not a real blog post

I'm so behind on blogging. I feel like so much happens and changes with the little lady everyday and it's hard to keep up. Big things like her turning 1 month old and her first Halloween and the fact that we are in the middle of moving and currently reside in a giant, horribly decorated vacation home in the butt crack of no where. I'll get to it alllater though.

Right now my mind is just full of thoughts. I'm coming down from one of the most stressful and exhausting weeks I've had in a very long time. Moving with a newborn and a healing c-section incision is hard. Dealing with very rude and inconsiderate people when you are offering a service is hard. A gassy baby is hard. Finally getting into a routine and having to start over in a new place is hard. No sleep is hard. And for some reason, finding someone to actually pick up a FREE washer and dryer is hard. 

So I'm a little exhausted and feeling very out of sorts. I don't like living out of suitcases and living far away from society. It makes the "alien" feeling of life with a newborn much more intense. 

But I'm thankful tonight that we have this place to stay until our new place is ready. I'm thankful for all the sweet ladies in our ward who act like my baby is the cutest thing they've ever seen in their lives.I'm  thankful for my cute husband who lets me nap and who carried every single moving box so I literally didn't lift a finger. I'm thank for crunch bars. And I'm thankful for baby snuggles. 

I've never felt more beautiful than I do now as a mom. I love this little girl with my whole soul. These past 5 weeks have been hard. Hard in ways I didn't completely expect. But they've been so beautiful. I'm figuring out a whole new part of myself. It's exhausting, sure. But it's also exhilarating.