My way back into blogging and some ding dongs

Okay, I am GETTING BACK INTO MY BLOG.
It's been really hard recently. As Sadie has become some interactive and dropped her second nap, I have had little alone time. My lap top bit the dust, and my husband uses the computer most of the night for homework. So my time on the computer has been almost nothing. Then morning sickness began and I was sleeping any spare second I got. So blogging definitely took a back seat.

I also realized recently, that I wasn't enjoying blogging like I used to. It used to be a release and fun hobby for me. As finding time to blog became harder, I didn't do the fun posts I always liked to do. I only had time to keep things updated with pictures and events so I didn't fall behind. I used to even have a funny blog. Remember that? People ask me about it and it makes me sad that I felt like I didn't have time to write in it. I used to do letters and lists and long posts about my thoughts. I LOVE writing. And I miss doing it a lot. So I am going to get back into it, helped mostly by my Christmas present- a macbook pro! Now I can write from the comfort of my own bed while I relax while Sadie naps. Or I can write at night while Nathan does homework. Or from the couch while Sadie entertains herself. I have the sweetest husband who got me this computer so I could get back into a hobby I love. I will also use it for editing pictures, another hobby I love and haven't had time for like I did before. I am really excited about it!!

I do find that I do my best writing when I am sad (Nathan's mission, Madelyn's death), and I am just not sad right now! So I think it will be a good challenge to explore my emotions when they aren't so heavy. Maybe I can start my random/funny blog again. Who knows! All I know is that I am stoked to have some of my hobbies back. I don't want to get swallowed up in motherhood and lose the things I loved before babies.

Speaking of babies, I have a lot to catch up on, but I had to share this. WE FOUND OUT WE ARE HAVING A BOY!!!! (Now that I think about it.. I don't think I ever even posted about being pregnant). We are SO excited!!!! We would have been happy with either outcome, but both of us were really leaning towards wanting a boy. When the ultrasound tech moved the wand down by his legs, there was no mistaking. She even said, "I don't think I really need to tell you what it is.." haha. He wasn't shy. Legs spread, like both his sisters did! He was also suuuuper active. The technician said she'd never seen a baby so small kick so much. I told her I was already feeling kicks and she said she wasn't surprised. He was really bouncing around in there. I felt him kick her wand several times. It's still weird to me that I am already feeling movement! This guy really wants his presence known.

We are so excited for this little guy to join our family. Sadie and I spent the afternoon shopping for boy clothes! We love him so much already.