finding out

On February 5th, Nathan and I got Chinese food. Which was a pretty common thing at our house. Recently, we had been annoyed with the fortune cookies. They always said things like, "Stepping outside your comfort zone can lead to happy results." Well duh. That's advice. Not a fortune. So I was happy that night, because my fortune wasn't advice that my mom had told me a million times. Instead, it said this:

Okay, so it's cheesy and I don't really even know what the "star of happiness" even means, but it made me so happy in that moment. I showed it to Nathan and I said, "This means I'm pregnant!" I couldn't believe I said it. Because I am superstitious, and crazy about jinxing stuff. But I said it and I was happy and I didn't even feel worried.

I had Friday, February 7th off work. I was finishing the job of packing up our down-town apartment. In the process, I found an old digital pregnancy test. I had stopped buying them a while ago. I tried to put it out of my mind, but I kept feeling like I should test. I was already late at this point, but I had been having such weird cycles, that I never really knew how long my cycle would be. I told Nathan we would wait until Valentine's day to test. But I couldn't help myself. The test was there. I had a full bladder. It had to happen.

The whole month I had been calm and at peace. I had felt several times like this would be the month, but I shoved those thoughts far from my brain. It was too hard to have hope and then have it squashed every month. So before I even peed on the stick, I said aloud, "It's negative Kaitlin. It's negative." Seriously. I talked to myself. So I literally felt like the wind was knocked out of me when I saw the word "pregnant" flash on that screen.

The top is my first test, and the bottom is one I took later, out of disbelief.

 My jaw dropped. I flew out of the bathroom and instantly fell to my knees. I started bawling my eyes out and began praying. I said "thankyouthankyouthankyou" and million times over. Then I tired to clam myself down. My first thought was to call Nathan, but I wanted to do a fun surprise this time. Trouble was, he had our car. I called him and told him I had to run some errands and needed the car. He brought the car to me and I dropped him back off at work. I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW HARD IT WAS TO ACT NORMAL AND NOT SAY ANYTHING. It was the worst.

I went to Walmart and got myself what I needed. A teeny-tiny white tshirt made for a baby, and some fabric markers. I also bought a few more pregnancy tests because I still couldn't believe it. I rushed home to pee on two more sticks and make a shirt for Lady.

We always joke that Lady is our child, so I thought this would be perfect!

Nathan came home for lunch and I told him I bought something for Lady that he had to see. He didn't expect ANYTHING. It was awesome. The video at the end says it all. Nathan's is first :)

We hugged and cried and laughed for a while. He told me he was completely caught off guard since we said we wouldn't test for another week. He thought I had made her a shirt that said "I am moving!" Dumbest shirt ever. Why would I make that Nathan?!

2 days later we told our parents. It was hard to keep it a secret for even that long! The next day I started to get some weird pains in my side. I called the doctor again and again until the agreed to give me an early ultrasound. We discovered I had some cysts, but the baby was perfectly fine! After that, it was time for all the siblings to know!

We filmed all their reactions. We did this with Madelyn too, but I never did anything with them. I am glad I put something together this time! I wish we could have told more people in person because it can get so awkward over the phone. But make sure you watch when I am facetiming with my sister and niece. Ava is so weirded out my Kelsey crying and she is very concerned about our cat :)
Ps. Amanda already knew because my sweet MIL accidentally let it slip because she thought Amanda knew. So by the time we called her, she was already crying. Hahahaha.

After that we slowly let close friends know. I had to end up telling my whole work much earlier than I wanted. My boss called me into his office and told me that he wanted me back full-time next year. I had to break it to him that I wouldn't be coming back at all. I had already let my very close teacher friends know, but I asked him to keep it quiet. Wasn't really a need because everyone knew by the next week. You see, I am quite bloated. To the point that I look about 4-5 months pregnant already. I thought I was hiding it well, but apparently not. Because the janitor congratulated me loudly at our faculty dinner and everyone stared at me. Whoops. A few days later a student just straight up asked me.
"Are you pregnant?! You are eating lemon heads and you did that last year when you were pregnant with Madelyn and you are also gaining weight but only in your stomach so it doesn't make any sense unless you are pregnant!"
What a brave boy. Apparently they were all talking about it in the hall and he was the only one who had the guts to ask. So there it is. I had to tell my whole work when I was only 9 weeks along, haha. But it was nice that they knew. Because I was pretty dang sick.

Then after our 3rd doctor appointment (yeah, I am gonna be at the doctor a lot), we told the world! So excited that we finally get to share our joy with everyone! Thank you for all your love and support!!!!!!!!