Pregnancy update 1

This pregnancy has been soooo different than my first two. I should have known it was a boy! He's seriously been kicking my butt.

I found out I was pregnant when I was 4 weeks along. By the end of that week I was getting waves of nausea. I thought I was making it up because no way could morning sickness already be kicking in. Right?

Wrong.

By the time week 5 hit, morning sickness was in full swing. It was awful. But I was also STARVING all the time. This never happened in other pregnancies. The only thing that calmed my stomach was milkshakes. And it only worked temporarily. So I can tell you I lost no weight in my first trimester haha. Weeks 5-10 were MISERABLE. Nothing tasted good, but I needed to eat all day. Everything hurt my stomach. There were no days or even times of day where I felt relief. It was all day, all night. I was soooo tired. And poor Sadie didn't understand. She was frustrated at being cooped up with a boring mom. I was miserable. At week 11, things got a tiny bit better. Around 14 weeks I thought things had actually cleared up. But by week 15 it was all back! I am writing during week 17 and it's not better. I am still sick all day and night, it's just less intense than the beginning. With both Sadie and Madelyn, morning sickness was non-existent after the 14th week. So I am pretty bummed.

I have hard from everyone, that each pregnancy gets harder. Well this is my third. And my third pregnancy in 3 and a half years. So my body is not taking it super well. I usually work out through my pregnancies which helps with energy and aches and pains, but I am have been so sick I have hardly worked out. My body hurts all the time, especially at night. It freaks me out because I am only 17 weeks! Yikes.

I have been sooooo emotional this pregnancy too. Everything makes me cry. Happy, sad, mad, confused, feeling nothing at all.. I am crying. Luckily I haven't been so easily irritated like I have in past pregnancies. I just cry all the time.

This post is pretty negative, and I don't mean it to be. I am so happy to be pregnant with this little boy!! I am just having a much harder time this time around. I used to be one of those women who said they loved being pregnant. And I meant it. Physically, my pregnancies have been great. Emotionally is a different story some days, but I genuinely loved watching my bump grow and feeling the baby and besides early morning sickness, no complaints. These days I am a giant complainer and I am trying to work on it, haha. It doesn't help that I seem to have gotten some kind of stomach virus this past weekend as well. I'm just a little bit of a mess ;)

But I am tell you, my favorite part of this pregnancy is daydreaming. I had trouble daydreaming when I was pregnant with Sadie, because I was too stressed I would lose her like I did Maddie. But this time around I have a lot less fear. I have already basically named him (Nathan just says he needs more time to really decide if it's the "right" name), I have bought him quite a few outfits. I imagine he and Sadie meeting all the time. I imagine them playing together. I imagine what he might look like. I imagine him getting his daddy's musical genius and drawing skills. I imagine him playing t-ball with a giant, over-sized helmet. I have fun dreaming about this little guy who is already a big part of my heart. Now if he could just stop making me so sick ;)